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First Year

Metastate is about honoring each other’s stories, no matter how different, and creating a more complete picture of our hopes, our fears, our dreams. We’ll share our conversations here and invite you to add your voices to the discussion. Pull up a chair and join us as we recount the stories and lessons of our lives… Darrée:  When I reached out to you this past May, I wasn’t expecting a collaboration of this magnitude. Now 7 months later, I’m astounded by the amazing people we met, our growing number of interviews, and the hopeful beginnings of a documentary film. In retrospect, I was hungry for creative collaboration and this project has already nourished me in so many ways. I know you’ve collaborated with others on creative endeavors in the past. How has this experience been different? Maryn:  This one felt so personal, like it was helping me get past a difficult time in my life. It was very “meta,” so to speak. Through doing this project, I was discovering things I could apply to my own life and the experience itself was …

Do You Pray?

Metastate is about honoring each other’s stories, no matter how different, and creating a more complete picture of our hopes, our fears, our dreams. We’ll share our conversations here and invite you to add your voices to the discussion. Pull up a chair and join us as we recount the stories and lessons of our lives… Darrée:  While teaching my former students about Typhoon Haiyan, I asked how we might contribute to the relief efforts. They suggested sending water, food and clothes. Then one boy who rarely spoke in class said, “We could pray.” Another asked, “How do you pray?” I must have looked terrified. I wanted to say something meaningful, but I was afraid that another student was going to correct me with his Christian or Muslim or Jehovah’s Witness definition. I regret not being able to say more at that moment.  Maryn:  I can’t remember a time when religion was openly discussed in the classroom. People seem afraid of it. By respecting everyone’s right to their beliefs, we stopped being able to talk about them. I …

Beyond “Type”

Metastate is about honoring each other’s stories, no matter how different, and creating a more complete picture of our hopes, our fears, our dreams. We’ll share our conversations here and invite you to add your voices to the discussion. Pull up a chair and join us as we recount the stories and lessons of our lives… Maryn:  In my lifetime I’ve been a tomboy, a girly girl, an intellectual, an athlete. I was in the Model UN, a beauty pageant, a corporate job, a creative job…always struggling to fit in, but never quite succeeding. How has your identity evolved over the years?  Darrée:  For a long time I struggled to fit into one archetype – whether it was nerd, misfit, or granola eating tree hugger. It wasn’t until college that I discovered I could be all of those things. I said a big screw you to societal expectations and let my flowy dresses coexist with my volleyball uniform; I sprawled out my paintbrushes next to my guitar and I’m all the more sane because of it.  Maryn:  How did you give up that social striving and …

Defining Moments

Metastate is about honoring each other’s stories, no matter how different, and creating a more complete picture of our hopes, our fears, our dreams. We’ll share our conversations here and invite you to add your voices to the discussion. Pull up a chair and join us as we recount the stories and lessons of our lives… Darrée:   I see my life as a constant search for identity and even though I can’t quite articulate what that identity is, whenever it is questioned or threatened, I feel it rise up. Have you had this experience before, one of those moments that really forced you to wake up? Maryn:  I was living at an apartment that my family owned. One of my relatives lived there too and she never liked my boyfriend. One day she barged into my place while I was gone and started accusing him of all these outrageous things. My boyfriend said he would not be coming over again. After that, I had to make a decision. If I wanted to stay with him, I would have to take the …

Best in Class

Metastate is about honoring each other’s stories, no matter how different, and creating a more complete picture of our hopes, our fears, our dreams. We’ll share our conversations here and invite you to add your voices to the discussion. Pull up a chair and join us as we recount the stories and lessons of our lives…   Darrée:  I was the clueless kid you didn’t want in your class. My only redeeming qualities were that I always left on time and gave teachers presents at the end of the year. In hindsight, I was intuitively winging everything, but my senior year of college I reinvented myself. I became this really hardworking, ambitious student who would stay up finishing work and reading everything in sight. Maryn:  I was a perfectionist throughout school – the annoying girl who wanted to be best in class and gave teachers presents throughout the year. I remember pooling money together with my classmates to buy our math teacher a Harley Davidson stuffed hog for his birthday (gag, I know). Other words to describe me: intense, nerd, overachiever. …

Find Your Voice

We have many voices in our heads. From our mothers to the magazines we read, it’s hard to untangle those dialogues from our own desires and judgments. How do we reconnect with our own true voice, that whisper that has been drowned out by all the louder voices over the years? Visit CAKOHI for a special collection inspired by finding your strength within. During our Metastate Chapter 1 journey, we met a former opera star. As we conducted the interview, she remarked that we weren’t speaking from our diaphragms. Our voices needed more support she said. She had us both stand up and put a belt around our waists. Can you feel it expand as you breathe in and out? Yes, we said. She instructed us to keep our vocal cords open and allow our voices to fall out of our mouths like a yawn. After our voice lesson, we practiced singing in the car and noticed how our voices sounded deeper and fuller. We began to wonder if the strain came from a lack of …

Departures

We just returned from our first trip on this Metastate journey. 5,000 miles, ten cities, and 20 conversations later, we are still in a state of disbelief. We sat down with those who shaped our lives – a childhood mentor, the founder of our elementary school, a favorite teacher, a best friend, a college roommate, our mothers. From sage advice to voice lessons to tearful moments of recognition, this trip has been unforgettable. After years of silence and compromise, we embark on this new path to reconnect with those who touched us and to rediscover forgotten parts of ourselves. During a time that most would call a “midlife crisis” or “breakdown,” we both woke back up to life. We’re moving outside our comfort zone, the stale yet familiar place we’ve called home, and taking that first step to rewrite our dreams. The other night we were discussing the meaning of metastate and something finally clicked. We are always in metastate no matter if we’re at a job we hate or chasing the dream we think we …